To whom I hold close to my heart
I need to get something off my chest, but I'm not always able to say certain things to one's face. Hence, I do appreciate if you're taking up some of your personal time to read this. Forgive me if you feel like I'm flakey, or that I don't put in the effort in being a good friend. I admit that I tend to do that a lot some of the time, and I take full responsibility for it. I sometimes figure for myself that doing favours or hanging with friends sometimes isn't worth my time, especially when I think that you guys are just using or taking advantage of me. Or that people secretly hate me and are only thinking of getting to my very core and destroying me. Don't get me wrong, it's not your fault - it's mine. Things happened back in high school - bad things , which consequently have shattered my self esteem (to a point) over the last few years, with its implications haunting me to this very day. It's been nearly 4 years since I left hi